Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Feeling Guilty...

I really do love being a SAHM but some days can be really hard...
It is raining and Cold today and the minute that Xavier got up he asked to go in the Pool and was having meltdowns each time I told him that we can't go because it is raining and cold...
I just saw what the day was going to be like...
Then the phone rang and it was the Daycare saying that they have a place open for today and asked if I wanted it... I jumped on the opportunity and brought him....
See, when I was in Montreal, we saw other kids all the time and did things with other mom's and kids... we also went to an organization that had the moms talking in one room and the kids in the next in a small daycare... it was only for 2 hours and it was only in the next room and Xavier came to love playing with his friends...
When we moved we lost that and Xavier was really looking for Friends to play with, and I couldn't find other SAHM's and didn't know anyone around and I was very pregnant and tired so I contacted a local daycare and we were put on call until they have a place for him... Now when a kid doesn't show up they give us the opportunity to bring him (this happens about 3-4 times a month or less)...
Xavier loves it though but I feel guilty of sending him there... I am a SAHM... Is it weird that I am sending my kid off to daycare... It Sept he will have a permanent position... I chose Tuesdays and Thursdays so that the week will have a good flow... I guess my reasoning is that we don't get to see many kids very often and he needs to learn how to share and how to play nicely (he has trouble with this sometimes), he is just about 3 and not yet at an age that he can go and make friends by himself and his little brother is still too small to be a good playmate.... It also gives me some one on one time with Colin and some time to do things around the house...
I am planning on homeschooling later on but I am also planning sending him to a few activities... So I guess I can see Daycare as that for now... it is an activity that he enjoys and that he thrives in and that he learns from...
I just can't help feeling guilty though...

3 Comments:

Anonymous -s said...

I have different mommy guilt issues right now, but I understand how you feel. Do not feel bad about that, especially if he likes it! <3<3

6/15/2005 09:34:00 AM  
Anonymous Sam said...

i think all momies go through times like that, even if you are your baby's best friend, they still have a need to play with other children. Especially extroverted children, they thrive on interaction with other children.

i have a couple resoarses for you if you're interested, http://www.matchingmoms.org you can type in yoru area code and see if there are other moms in your area, i had a little success with this but i live in a small town and its hard.

also MOPS international is a great place to go for mommy interaction while your children play http://www.mops.org I think there is a locater on there...

hope this helps :)

6/15/2005 04:56:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi! I'm a fellow Sept Mama (sistermama) and I also have an almost three year old. He goes to preschool and he loves it, plus I am a better mom when I get a break to spend with the baby and do stuff around the house. I've found that when he is home, I'm much more able to relax and play with him, because I'm not worried about getting the house cleaned, etc. So don't feel guilty - especially if you know he enjoys going.

6/16/2005 10:00:00 AM  

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