Weight...

Everyday I get up and say that I need to lose weight but then I get so hungry and I just need to eat... I don't know if it because of the Tandem nursing or it just in my head but I have never been hungry like this before...
A few years ago, about 6 months before I got pregnant with Xavier I was at my highest weight and one day things just clicked inside and on a Sunday night I bought a series of 12 coupons for Weight Watchers and made my way to the meeting the day after... I was ready and I was willing to lose weight... 6 months later I had lost 50 pounds and fell pregnant with Xavier...
Now. After 2 kids, I am about in the middle mark between my highest and my lowest weight.. I really want to lose more again but I can't even imagine how I would do it this time around... I would love to lose more before I get pregnant again.. I think my body would appreciate it...
I need to get my motivation back.. I need to find people that will help motivate me... I miss the group of women that I used to see every Monday night... I have since moved about an hour away and the group that is here just doesn't interest me... I can talk more openly in English, I feel better in an English setting and that is not available here...
Why won't it just click the way it did a few years back... Why can't I get that same feeling that I just have had enough and things have to change and they have to change now...
If I want to succeed I need that feeling again...